Hello everyone,

First I would like to apologize for not being around much lately My bad. Things have been kinda brutal that last few months. It carries along with my last journal entry. Things are so chaotic and although I know that very soon I will truly be free it just cant come soon enough. I feel like an old dirty rug that everyone I thought loved me steps all over. I have a precious few in my life right now that give me strength. This is such a turning point in my life and I am so incredibly greatful that I have someone like Brandon (my killer amazing boyfriend!) to help me through. Infact he is a catalyst to it. Between him and my very good friend/boss/uncle Richard I feel as though I can take on anything and do it with a smile. Although things are hard and I feel so tired and on the edge right now I know I am on the precipice of something that will make my life what I have always dreamt it to be. MINE. Free of judgement, scrutiny and conditional love. And although I have lost a family I am lucky enough to have a whole other family ready and waiting for me. They have been waiting for a while now but only now can I see what lays infront of me. As I have been told so many times by Richard - I cant help you if you arent willing to help yourself.

To wrap this up I just wanted to say I know I have been neglecting my passion but I am in survival mode and have been for quite some time. I need to settle down, sit back and take in all this shit that has happened and when that happens I wont be able to control the flow baby. Infact I feel in coming on as we speak ... I am out, gonna go etch some pages with my minds ink.

Have a great night, I miss you all.

Sandra